One of the things that I was shocked about and couldn’t get over when we first learned about Gabriel’s conditions was that the world goes on. While our world had stopped, everyone else’s went on. Things looked normal out my window. Facebook continued to facebook away. People even kept having babies and continuing on with their normal pregnancies. Even in my own home, the dishes were still there, the kitchen still got dirty, and the laundry continued to pile up. But yet I was at a standstill.
Now I’m getting back into the swing of things. I didn’t see earlier how I ever would. And I’m sure I’ll still have days where leaving the house or fixing dinner seems overwhelming. But I think part of walking this journey is the continuing to live every day. How could I ever have a “normal pregnancy” for the rest of our time with Gabriel if I never did anything normal? This is all so different, but as life goes on I’m learning to adapt. Learning how to be a mama to Jack, be a wife to Tommy, take care of our home, do all the things [or in reality just some of the things] while living each day focused on God with an intense love and passion for Gabriel. Living every day life with intentionality. I’ve never been very good at that, and now I see the extreme importance of it.
So as I worry about my sweet baby and wrestle with the uncertainty of it all, the words I’m remembering today come from the Lord.
The Lord will fight for you, and you need only to be still.
Thank you for being here and reading. Thank you for your prayers!!