I didn’t think I’d be writing on the blog again so soon. But yesterday I needed to write. I needed to document our day so that I can always look back and read what I wrote on the day we buried Gabriel’s body.
In 3 hours, it will have been 5 days exactly since we met our sweet boy. Crazy thing is that exactly 5 days ago I was just getting to the hospital. But 5 days ago, we got our much anticipated moment of meeting Gabriel. We held him in our arms. We watched him and loved on him. He was with us, and he was alive. We are so thankful for that. We want to share that our prayers were answered to meet our baby boy alive. We want people to know that. Yet, it would be a lie to say that we weren’t so so sad that he isn’t here with us now. We so badly wanted him to be the baby that keeps going. The one who defies all the odds. We wanted a million moments to snuggle him and kiss him. We wanted to take 10,000 pictures of him. We wanted to bring him home. We wanted minutes and we got hours, so we are so thankful. But we also wanted a day, a week, a month, 99 days. But none of those would have ever been enough. We have hundreds of thoughts running through our heads. Emotions that go up and down and back and forth. Things I do want to share eventually. But for now, know that we are so thankful, so blessed that our baby boy was alive with us. We will never forget how it felt to hold him in our arms, yet at the same time, the details are already starting to fade away and the exact feelings of it all are getting fuzzy already and it’s terrifying. Know that we are thankful that our baby never suffered here on earth. Know that we are learning that as God tells us, there is no difference between an hour and one thousand years. Know that we are comforted. Know that we are aching.
And know that we are so thankful for you. We have felt so loved and cannot imagine getting through this without all of your love. Our words could never be enough to express how deep the gratitude and love runs in our hearts for you. But in our weak attempt, we say thank you.
We do have some information we’d like to share.
We will be having a service celebrating Gabriel’s life next Saturday, May 18th at 7 pm at Fellowship Church. We would love, and be very honored, for everyone to come celebrate his life with us.
We have been asked about where donations can be made in honor of Gabriel, and we have that set up now. We are so incredibly touched by this and are so blessed that Gabriel’s life continues to bless others through memorial gifts. Thank you for honoring our son in that way. Please send memorial gifts to Soar Youth Ministries.
Soar Youth Ministries is a Christian after school and mentoring program serving at risk youth in the Lonsdale area. They seek to make the love of God credible to hurting children through relationships grounded in Christ. More information can be found on their website at soaruponwings.com
Donations can be mailed to:
1317 Connecticut Ave. NW
Knoxville, TN 37921