Gabriel was born three months ago. Today he would be three months old. We also lost Gabriel three months ago today. Today we remember extra what that day was like when we got to meet him and hold him and love on him. Tonight we will go back to the infant loss support group for the second time. It’s hard to believe it’s been 3 months. The memories fade so quickly – I can’t remember the feeling of him in my arms as easily any more. I can’t smell his new baby smell on his blankets any longer. I forget that it’s only been 3 months. In ways it feels like life’s been like this forever, and in ways it seems like only last week.
We deeply miss our Gabriel. Our family misses its 4th member.