a year in review.

I’ve seen everyone doing Instagram summaries of their year.  There are blog posts out there on every blog wrapping up the year.  I had planned to skip that one this year.  But this was a very important year for our family – one we won’t ever forget.  So my 2013 summary isn’t going to look as happy and glowy as many of them out there – but it’s real and it’s ours and it’s the year that changed us, shaped us, and taught us all about life, love, and God.  So here we go!


Started the year out excited to add a new baby to our family.  January 7th our lives changed forever when we found out Gabriel was sick.

After looking at our baby’s DNA, we were informed a couple of weeks later on a snow day that he did, indeed, have Trisomy 18.

We started walking this hard walk that has become our life – choosing to love, hope, and celebrate his life EVERY SINGLE MOMENT of it!

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Jack [and Gabriel’s] first snow!

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Videos of our sweet boy.

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Spending lots of time praying, trusting, listening.

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A snowy, dark drive home from another bad doctor’s appointment.

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I’m sorry and I love you pie from my sweet Granny.

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Perinatal cardiologist appointment.

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We celebrated our baby’s first Valentine’s Day.

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And Tommy got to work on Gabriel’s nursery – making it a perfect room for him.  It turned out beautifully when he was done!

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We continued living our days learning to walk in trust and to celebrate every single day of Gabriel’s life.

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We had a photo shoot gifted to us by our friend and photographer, Erin Rodgers, so that we could always have pictures of our time with Gabriel.

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We celebrated Tommy’s birthday!

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Tommy’s sister took some pictures for us  before our sweet G was born.

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Last family photo before Gabriel was born.

May – Our big month!

May 5th – Gabriel’s born alive!!

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Gabriel lived for 2 hours and is now in Heaven with our Father.
We had the sweetest graveside service to bury our baby boy.

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I had my first Mother’s Day as a mom to 2 one week after Gabriel was born.

Anni-Jack-a-birthday week came and we celebrated our anniversary, Jack’s 2nd birthday, and my birthday.

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June — 

We celebrated Father’s Day

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Celebrated Gabriel  Pictures 910

Celebrated Granny’s 82nd birthday  Pictures 969

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I wore a heart monitor trying to find answers to health problems.

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One of our nightly readings of “We Were Gonna Have A Baby But We Had An Angel Instead”

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Beauty from ashes

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A picnic lunch with Granny.  A beautiful, sunny day with some of my favorite companions.  And our last special moment with Granny.

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Jack starts preschool!

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I got diagnosed with an autoimmune disease.

Tommy and I snuck in some fun time.

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Football game with friends.

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Gabriel’s marker came in.

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I wrote about hope for 31 days throughout October.


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October was a busy and hard month.  I had surgery – a cholecystectomy.  Then several days later, my Granny died very suddenly and unexpectedly.  After her burial, a whole bunch of family came to our Gabriel’s grave.

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November  —

Erin Rodgers took our fall family pictures for us.  A sweet reminder of this season of our lives.

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Christmas as a family of 4, with only 3 of us here.  We celebrated the hope that is Christmas.

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And just a few of the many blessings from others…

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And plenty of fun and two year old business…

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This was our worst yet richest year.  It has been so hard, but we have been so blessed.  Although we wouldn’t have asked for the bad in this year, God has certainly used it in our lives.  We have clung to hope this year, and hope continues to be given to us.  We have hope that we will see our son again one day.  We are so thankful for all of you.  Thank you for reading.  Thank you for loving us.  Thank you for prayers, for support, for cards, and gifts.  For everything.  I don’t say it nearly enough.  But we have been so immensely blessed this year, and when I look back over our year, I see hard, but behind it I see so much love.  Thank you for loving us and carrying us through such a rough year.  We love you all!

Happy New Year to you!


See last years wrap up here.


One thought on “a year in review.

  1. Thank you for your grace and truth woven together in all you have written, Dear Lauren. You have our love and prayers for this brand New Year!

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