It is summer, and we are having a lot of fun. We’ve been crossing things off our list and just going with the flow that summer naturally brings with it. It’s been kind of wonderful. For some reason I have always fought the easy-going spirit of summer. Perhaps it’s in my personality. I never found it very good to just sit and read instead of doing something that could accomplish things. I never understood the fun in neglecting daily responsibilities to go explore something. I’m sure some of you must find this so tightly wound and ridiculous. It’s just how I am. I prefer the structure of days and the schedule of things. Spontaneously exploring a new area or just taking an afternoon off to read is so foreign to me. But being a mom is changing me. In so many ways — including this.
For the first time I am appreciating the slowness of summer. The permission for a break. The allowance of taking it slow. It’s fantastic! It’s like we’re given this season where responsibilities can be delayed or set aside for a few hours or few days and why wouldn’t I want to take advantage of that. So this summer I am spending a little bit more time being open to those things. Being open to taking the long way home. Being open to jumping out of the car to explore somewhere we haven’t before. Being open to sitting on my front porch and reading instead of heading to my laptop to be in the inter webs world.
That explains my absence lately and will explain my scarcity for the rest of the summer. I have many things I want to share — recipes, weight loss, nutrition information, Jack, Gabriel, home life, other blogs — so much that I want to jump on here and share with you. But each time I do it takes time away from my boys and time away from our freedom to take it easy this summer. So I’m not saying that I won’t be blogging this summer, and I’m not saying that I will be. How amazingly ambiguous, right? But after spending several weeks stressing out over whether I will continue blogging this summer or whether I will take a break, I realized the stress was unnecessary and I would just allow myself the permission to be here as little as I want to be.
I think the break will be refreshing for me, and I hope it will allow me to come back as a stronger writer and blogger in the fall. It also frees up some time and brain space to think through other areas like Project Gabriel. And most importantly to focus on Tommy and Jack and our home.
I wanted to share my thoughts with you and wish you a relaxing and easy going summer as well! Here’s to taking advantage of enjoying the long days of summer.