Jack falls asleep listening to music every night. But last week the last song on the CD quit playing correctly, so it just started skipping and making bad noises. This became problematic because it wouldn’t just turn off anymore, and we had to go in Jack’s room to turn it off – which would sometimes wake him. So on the advice of my friend, Tommy ordered a sound machine. We should have just done that from the beginning. Oh well. The sound machine came, and we set it up telling him how special it was and that is was just for him, and he hated it. He screamed in terror. So now we are trying to convince him that it’s great. If Tommy puts him down, he just puts the sound machine on, but Jack knows he has me at nap time. I need him to nap, so I will do what it takes. Yesterday afternoon I did his music and the sound machine, and he wanted that again last night. So I turned Jack’s music on after his repeated requests wore me down.
After it started playing, he said “it’s not broken”. I told him he was right, that it wasn’t completely broken. Then he said, “I’m not broken.” I told him he was right, that he wasn’t broken. Then he said, “You’re not broken, mommy.”
Man, how does my 2 year old keep teaching me things? I told him that he was right, that I wasn’t broken. Then I paused and said, “even though it feels like it sometimes”.
But wow, he was right. I am not broken. And today, I want to share that with you, too. If you’re feeling that way, I hope Jack’s words strike you deeply like they did me. I hope you will find comfort in knowing that no matter what is hard in your life right now – kids who won’t sleep, kids who fight, a draining job, a draining home life, a messy house, an illness, grief, loss, death, fighting, people letting you down, hurt, no job – whatever it is that’s making you feel broken… know that you are not. God is in the business of healing, and He makes us whole. Because of Him, we are not broken.
And tomorrow when you wake up and life feels just as hard or your day gets worse, remember my sweet boy’s words in the most innocent of voices, “you are not broken”. And cling to that truth. And keep pushing forward.