weekend party.

Saturday our sweet friends had their birthday party.  My friend, Becca, has 2 boys who share a birthday.  She had the same due date with both of them – just like I did with  my boys!  I thought that was so fun when we met almost a year ago.  Her boys turned 3 and 1, and they had a fun party at a little gym here that is perfect for our kids. 


Jack had the best time.  He got to jump, climb, and play with his friends.  Then eat a Tennessee cupcake, squeezy pouch, and a Capri Sun.  All his favorite things.  He had to learn the concept that he only gets one cupcake.  Tough lesson.  Also, he is that kid who scarfs down a cupcake in about 5 seconds flat.  Becca and I took turns taking pictures, so here are a few of the fun. 



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the dads. 


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one of the birthday boys.  Benton’s one! 

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the other birthday boy.  Brayden’s 3! 


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We had the best time and were so happy to get to celebrate these sweet boys!  Brayden and Benton are such precious boys, and we’re so happy we get to watch them grow! 

he’s 2.

Our firstborn, our sweet baby boy #1, is 2 years old today.  Two years old.  I can hardly believe it, but at the same time it feels like he’s been our little buddy for forever.  I tell him all the time he’s my favorite person.  Obviously Tommy and Gabriel are my favorites, too, but that’s just one of my things I tell Jack often.




He is the most incredible little person.  He’s so loving, so full of life, so caring, so passionate.  I’ve never known anyone like him, and I’m so thankful for him.  He is the biggest blessing to us, and we are so acutely aware of that, especially now.  I have a lot more I want to say about our Jack Jack, and I have a lot of the sweet little things that he does right now that I want to share and have written down here.  But I’m tired, it’s an emotionally exhausting weekend, and I’m going to watch tv and go to bed.  So soon, when I have more emotional energy, I will share more details about our sweet boy.







Well kids, our weekend is here.  Today is Day 1 of the Anni-Jacka-Birthday weekend.  Tommy coined the term “Anni-Jacka-Birthday” 2 years ago when Jack was born on the day in between our anniversary and my birthday. Tommy and I were married on May 24th, Jack was born 2 years later on May 25th, and my birthday is May 26th.  Actually, this year it’s my golden birthday.  We keep saying that we’re going to go to the beach for the week every year, but things keep coming up — like due dates on my birthday.  Jack and Gabriel were both due on May 26th, so that adds some extra weight to my birthday this year.  I think the time Gabriel came was absolutely perfect, but the 26th is a big reminder of him.


So this is typically our party week – several reasons to celebrate big.  When we found out we were due May 26th again with baby #2, it was crazy!  What are the odds of my due date being my birthday… twice!  So we envisioned adding another birthday onto the Anni-Jacka-Birthday week.  Tommy was pulling for the 23rd .  That was until that January day where our world turned upside down.


So normally I get really excited about this time, but this year I don’t feel like celebrating much.  Sunday will be 3 weeks since Gabriel was born and then passed away.  It doesn’t seem right to have a big weekend celebrating when we don’t have him here with us.  I know people will tell me that he’d want us to celebrate and all of that stuff.  I’m sure it’s true, but that doesn’t change how I feel.  So this year we’re balancing and having a hybrid sort of Anni-Jacka-Birthday.  We definitely want to celebrate these things and celebrate our sweet Jack turning 2 [!!!!]  but it’s not the big weekend it normally would be.  I couldn’t do a party for Jack this year.  I knew Gabriel would come before his due date so that made it hard to plan a party early, and I knew I just wouldn’t be able to do it after Gabriel was born this year.  Jack will be fine, mostly because he’s awesome, but also because he’s turning 2, so he probably won’t know the difference.  We plan on spending the day doing special things with him and then we’ll celebrate his birthday with both of our families this weekend.  We’ll make sure he’s well celebrated.



So on to today — our anniversary.  Some words for my husband.


Four years ago on this day I never could have imagined where our lives would lead.  I couldn’t have dreamed that we would have moved 4 times, bought 2 houses, worked on one all the time, got a puppy, survived that, crazily got another puppy, got really great starts on our careers in DC, got to move home, and had 2 babies.  We made it through the crazy new parent, newborn phase.  We made it through not knowing if Jack would make it after he was born so sick.  I never in a million years could have dreamed how sweet our Jack would be and how much we’d love being parents, or what road we would walk with our Gabriel.  I never would have thought on our 4th anniversary that we’d have 2 kids and have lost one of them.  But somehow through all of that, we are closer and stronger.  When the trials have come, when the biggest fire of all started us off this year, we drew closer to God and closer to each other and he’s made us see that we’re each others greatest ally.  I’m really thankful that in these past few weeks, my greatest comfort, my favorite thing in the dark days is talking with you.  Or just sitting with you as the heavy silence speaks volumes over us.  I’m thankful for you, Tommy.  And as hard as life’s been this year, I know for sure I couldn’t have gotten through it without you by my side.  Here’s to many more years, love!



his birthday.

Today is a day for celebrating the man in my life.  The one who encourages me, supports me, thinks I’m funny, wants to spend his time with me, takes care of me, is an awesome dad, so smart, so fun, so handsome.  My favorite person to be with.








































Happy birthday, Tommy!!