the difference between snow and rain.

Last year was the rainiest year Knoxville has seen since the 1800s.  It rained all the time.  I talked about rain a lot, because it rained for more than a week straight after we found out Gabriel had T18.  It would rain on most of the days I had OB appointments.  Rain was a constant in our lives, and it represented how I felt really well.  2013 was a rainy year both physically and symbolically for us. 

 

Now we sit here in the year 2014.  It is a new year.  We continue to grieve for our sweet G.  We miss him.  I wish he was here – Jack would love having a brother to play with.  There are many moments where I think that Gabriel should be here with us.  But the truth of the matter is that he isn’t.  And while it is impossibly hard, we are not defeated because we have hope.  We are anchored in hope.  We trust that we will one day be reunited with our sweet G.  That we will know him well then.  And we trust that he is presently with our Father – being cradled and loved lavishly – so much more than we could ever do or imagine.  And knowing those things, thinking about those things reminds me of snow. 

 

There is nothing more pure, more new, more fresh than snow.  Watching the snow fall, watching it build and lay is a blessing for us.  To watch it fall from the sky and create beauty that is rarely seen on earth, is a special gift for us here.  Waking up in the morning to a fresh snow fall – one that is undisturbed and entirely peaceful is such a reminder to me that God makes all things new.  So with these recent snowfalls we have had, I am reminded of this about our Father.  And I am even more deeply stirred to think about how He has made our Gabriel new.  He has made him pure as snow.  And one day, He will do the same for us. 

 

It’s only fitting that this winter we have seen much more snow than usual for Knoxville.  While this time last year, all we got was rain, this year we seem to be sitting under snow.  A visual example of where we are in our lives.  In a season of awe appreciating God’s graciousness, His blessing, and His healing and new creation of our son who was so sick on this earth. 

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happy new week.

Today is one of those Mondays where I am happy to see it and ready to start a new week.  After lots of snow last week [which was awesome!] and then a long sick weekend in the Morgan house, we are ready for a new week.  This week looks very promising with a forecast of highs in the fiftys and sixtys.  We are going to get outside!  While I love all of the snow we have had this year, I am now ready for sunshine and warmth. 

We have all three taken a turn with a stomach bug.  I had an upper respiratory infection the week before that.  I didn’t see my doctor about it, assuming it was just a cold, but my rheumatologist was more concerned about it and gave me an antibiotic before I got started on steroids for my autoimmune disorders.  A day into that antibiotic, I was feeling so much better!  It’s amazing how helpful medicine can be when we need it. 

So it’s a new week, the sun is shining this morning, and I am looking forward to all this week holds.  Today is going to be full of cleaning bathrooms, doing laundry, and getting all cleaned up. 

I didn’t get too many great pictures of the snow this time around.  We got over six inches Wednesday night and Thursday, and then had some show snow up Saturday night as well.  About 2 inches there.  It’s been a snowy winter for Knoxville, and I love it! 

 

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Hope you have a wonderful new week! 

more snow days.

Tuesday we had snow all day, and it was fantastic.  I feel terrible for the people in Birmingham and Atlanta who had some really bad situations.  I know conditions were rough in Knoxville, but thankfully not like that.  It took Tommy 2 hours to get home from work Tuesday afternoon, and he had to cancel his business trip due to the weather.  But really an unexpected snow is my very favorite!  I hate when they say we are going to get snow and we get none or flurries.  So I love when it’s not expected and we get a good snow.  We had over 4 inches fall.  Big stuff around these parts. 

Schools were closed on Wednesday, Thursday, and today due to the road conditions.  I was pretty disappointed Jack didn’t get to go to preschool yesterday – I’m sure along with many other mamas.  But I’m glad his teachers get to enjoy some snow time at home. 

 

We’ve been pretty much stuck at home for days now.  So after I shared how stressed I was by how many things I needed to do, I definitely got some rest time at home.  It’s been nice, but we’ve got some things to get done so we will venture out to do some errands today.  Jack is in need of getting out of the house, too. 

 

One would think with all of this time at home I have been really productive.  I should be all caught up on blogs, emails, and house stuff.  Apparently being stuck at home does little for my productivity.  So here are a bunch of pictures from Tuesday night and Wednesday in the snow. 

 

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This dog doesn’t love the snow, but he does love playing and attention.  Maybe it’s because he was sitting in 2 feet of snow when we got him. 

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This dog on the other hand, loves snow.  She’s been in snow taller than her before and loved it so much.  She’s funny. 

 

Hope you are enjoying snow if you have it!  Hope everyone is having a good week! 

snow day.

Yesterday we had a sick day.  Today we are having a snow day.  I’m catching breaks all over the place this week!  Looking at our week ahead on Sunday, I was stressed out because we had something going on every night this week with lots of stuff to get done this week, too.  Sunday and yesterday I was forced to slow down with Jack sick.  Today the snow, aside from how much I just love snow, has really made my week better.  Tommy was supposed to go out of town on business, but thanks to the snow and the bad road conditions, he canceled his trip.  It took him 2 hours to get home from work, so there was no way he was going to get to the airport in time for his flight.  So we get him here with us! 

 

Today we are staying in, watching the snow fall, and playing in it.  I’ve got blankets out, warm food going, and am doing lazy things.  It’s the best!  We are very blessed. 

 

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Our sweet neighbor gave Jack 2 superhero towels that her kids used to wear when they were little.  Jack loves it!  And is definitely my favorite super hero. 

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snow day.

Thursday we got a bit of snow here — a lot by Knoxville standards.  I think we had a whopping inch or inch and a half at our house, and I was so thankful for it.  We had the best time getting out in it and playing.  It was a nice break… a change of pace.

 

This was not the first time Jack’s seen snow, but it’s been over a year since he has, so big difference this time.  Watching him play in the snow was so much fun.  It was like he was discovering a whole new aspect of life, and I loved getting to watch.  At first he was excited, but cautious as he took it in– which is totally his personality.  Before long he was running and yelling, wanting to play with all the big kids on the street.

 

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The round cheeks with the red nose… ohh it gets me.

 

 

 

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There was a lot of water from all the rain we’ve had.  As soon as Jack discovered these puddles, it was all fun splashing.  He couldn’t have cared less how wet and cold he was.  Boys are so fun!  Thankful I’m having another.

 

 

 

hope is in the air.

I know I have written about the rain several times.  I just cannot get over the connection between the weather and where our lives are now.  We found out that something was wrong with Gabriel 11 days ago.  It has rained for the past 8 days, and it rained the day after we learned the details of Gabriel’s health.  So nine out of the eleven days that we have known about our baby boy’s health and prognosis, the skies have opened and it has poured out.  We’ve had 8 inches of rain in 8 days.  That’s not just “crazy weather”.  I mean it is crazy weather, but I do believe that there is a connection between that crazy weather and the state of our hearts.  I can’t remember a time when it’s rained so hard for so long.

 

People will often times equate trials in life to rain.  There are many songs that talk about “bringing the rain”.  We’ve been soaking wet.  We’ve been drenched when we walk outside, cheeks tear-stained, and hearts heavy with sadness on the inside.  But today the rain has stopped.  Not this trial in our life, not the hard that is our new life, not the tears we cry, but the rain falling from the sky has stopped today.  I see sunshine and the promise that comes with it.  There is something about the sun, especially after a very hard rainfall, that brings hope.

 

I wrote a couple of days ago about how I had quickly lost hope.  And then I was so thankful for how quickly the Lord allowed me to see that was happening.  It’s funny because today I woke up and my devotional was about where our hope is.  One of my favorite bloggers posted about the hope of spring.  Yesterday I had great hope that we would see snow.  And as I looked up out my window yesterday afternoon, I saw it.  The snow that I so eagerly waited for was falling.  I had hoped with deep longing to see snow yesterday.  It may be a silly thing, compared to what else I hope for now, but it reminded me that God fulfills hope.  God shows up.  And as I looked up and saw the snow falling, I started to cry.  Partly because that’s what I do these days.  But mostly because God shows up.  And He showed me, He reminded me yesterday, with the gift of snowfall.

 

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Thank You God for snowfall.  Thank You for always showing up.  Thank You for signs of hope today through reminders from others, through Your creation, and through Your sunshine.

when it keeps on raining.

I said in another post that it has been raining pretty much since we found out about Gabriel’s health conditions.  And I find it fitting.  But today there is a chance that rain could turn to snow, and the thought of that brings me joy.

 

Last night I was looking at the forecast with the hopeful expectation of an elementary school kid.  I read last night that we have had 7 inches of rain since Sunday, and it has poured ALL DAY LONG today.  I sit here on my couch watching the rain pour down the driveways and down the street.  It’s relentless.  But I am reminded that God is with us in the rain.  He is present, and His greatness is made known through the rain and the sunshine.

 

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So today while it just keeps raining, I am watching, hoping the temperature drops.  Hoping the rain turns to snow, and we will find joy in that.  Jack will love it if it snows.  And Gabriel, he’ll get to see– or experience??– his first snow!

 

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Hope you are staying warm and dry and spending time with loved ones today.

 

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Jack wanted to cuddle up first thing this morning.  And that makes my heart happy.  My sweet boy has learned to snuggle up like the best of us.